c0mments! Walao,finally recovered from that stupid illness-.-''
back to normal and healthy=)
but..still need to take care of that class competition-,-
still need to training,planning..
it was okay,but some people use *****'s birthday and choose the most 'PERFECT' class for our first three matches,i cant thank them enough=.=
that means i was pressured enough
i told myself,is just a game anyway..no harm done=)
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I been thinking ..
Am i really wasting my time...
by spending all my time on it...
and he/she did tell me that he/she dont deserve=(
i was like going to crack into pieces,am i being too nerd?
i always thought people likes to be cared=(
but i was wrong..
being too good to people wont get good luck..
is just wasting your time on it..
i still dont get it,if i become bad,no one will like me anymore=(
if i become good,they will try to bully me=(
for normal people,if someone bully you,you sure will bully back him..
but i just cant do it..instead of that i will try to calm myself,and let him bully=(
i hate myself..
but this is who am i.,..
and i just gonna make my life more interesting..
but..i just dont know how............
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i like to care people,you can say me 38 d..
is okay for me..
but i still dont understand why people will try to push me away..
pushing me away it is like kicking me out of everything..
is this what human live for purpose?
then i got to say thanks to the upcoming 2010..
It is hard for me to think possitive,because everything negative from,just wont stop sending to me=)
i want to be normal,that's what i only want,i dont think i earn any trust form you guys=(((((
not even one...
i know you guys are just pretending in front of me,saying that caring me=(,then i will pretend to understand to undestand too also..for my own happiness...
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when i say sorry,you guys will say why...
i am angry when i heard that...
because i knwo i am wrong,and you are pushing away by keeping in your ming for revenge...
i am already a worker for you guys, and i dont need money for that=(
you still want to hurt me until when...
i leave,you guys keep advising me,what's the problem,i thought you guys want the most is to kick me out of your life..
and if i got problem,who knows because i wont tell..=P
why i wont tell,because even if i tell,i will be talking to a wall=)
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i did say i got many memories right?
i think not even one of them is a happy one for me=)
i really wish that i already dead at that accident
...

-I am dead- c0mments! I just want to go to another school~
I hate here~I hate it!
Yesterday having BBQ with my friends
one of them come and chat with me while the others go inside to play ~
well,i chat with him about all those games~
then suddenly he got important question~
he went and ask me...
!!!It goes like this^^
him:你为什么在中秋节的时候，不要出来，反而出来一下，你又跑回家了？
me:....
him:是不是因为他？
me:yes..
him:那你闯祸了
me:like i care..
him:...
He dont have the right to be my leader
because he dont have the guts to do that
and i learn another big lesson yesterday..
some peoples is strong from the surface~
but it doesn'tmean that he is unstoppable..
Timid is one of the reason~
such attitude~
GO TO HELL LA~
maybe is the same thing about my school~!
go to wrong school~is not my fault~who's fault?
thanks to my mother
saying that this is her mother school that doesn't even have any right to teach me~
but hurt my feelings+wasting time
not only on exams(lazy is not the only reason),attitude,even my life~
every second i spend at there,is just leading me to ...dead

You wont believe,because you ain't me.
You wont listen,because you ain't my best friend.
You wont spend,because you dont care.

This is The End

D.A.Y.S ~~ c0mments! so sad because i think i got many subject will fail in front of my eyes~
but it's okay~
nothing is scary to me~
because i found out a conclusion of 2010
everything wont have a good opening
but everything will end like life..
everything will stop..
nothing is forever..
this year is the year i can't stop my feeling~until i learn some lesson
sometimes just got to let go..
this world ain't mine is everyone d..
why been so hardworking to protect someone or something
while you have all the time for you to enjoy~or even do revision~
6/8/2010 this is the day that change my life upside down
why?because i found out all my problem,question was found from someone
and because of that~
i cant stop my feeling to fell so despair~
cause this is my life~
i dont deserve or they dont deserve
this is the only question i want to know..
maybe it wont have an answer~
cause i am wasting my time~as it is always i been doing
always lying on bed while playing guitar~
thinking how to meet the faith of my whole life
Life Brief Candle
i like this poem very much~
cuz this is the only poem i think it is most perfect about me~
every time i need someone to guide me~not bring happiness to me~
but it end up even worst
thanks for my "parents"~(real family)
i dont have time to think that~
that will be my conclusion~
i always like swing at the park~
cause they will always company me
and nature will guide me to go the right way~
every nature living things on the park~
thanks~
and i finally know why the bees want to bite me while using a swarm of bees to chase me back home~
because they dont want me to get burn by the sun(1 o'clock) and a signal for me to do revision ^^
i cant thank them enough~
i realise not that human is the only heart healer~
but nature will also~
N.I.C.K J.O.N.A.S
i love you man~~~~nice songs