c0mments! Feeling never ends huh....
until i decide what is the best for me to choose...
but i just dont have the guts...
If the most horrible decision is not maked..
what will happen~~
and i wont be needing my parent's help~~
guys next time please dont talk about my parents helping me~~
i wont be needing them,after i go to overseas~~
all of them are just giving me pressure,sad,or even verge of death
i cant scold them,they are still my parents after all or NOT~~
basketball is always a sport to make friends
basketball is teacher who teach us how to teamwork
Basketball is always connection to help us be kind and aring to each other
but it is not for showing who is better or stronger
it is also not consider as match that can be gamble
most of all ,it is not for making the teamates become enemy~~
last sunday~~as again~~
scold by my captain~~
i am trying to do my best~~
trying dude,TRYING
but what did i do wrong~~
ask them what i wrong...they didnt even say a thing
what's the problem...
sooner or later...
my whole team will come and squash me already...
cuz all of them are my captain's dog
except me~~^^
i wont be stupid enough to be peoples dog...
i wont talk ,u scold me...
i am co-operating,u scold me
i am running,u scold me
i am solo+ing,u scold me~~
i lay-up,u scold me
i am passing ,u scold me!!
what do you want me to then~~
siting on the court...
watching u guys become 4
well..i think this my solution~~
i think teacher is right...
you cannot help your friend toooooo much
or they will betray you~~
i use my one hundred ringgit(money to buy my favourite books) to buy a basketball
but u just go and throw it away...and now it is gone
but its ok,u get nothing ,i get scolding...right?
second time...company you guys at night for your training....
what did you guys said: eh junwei, help me buy water,eh junwei go to my house to take my ball...
i did for them@.@
thank you is not required
third time helping them to take an excuse to their mum~~
they went cyber cafe,and i am at house~~
suddenly they calll me said,junwei help me tell my mum,i am going out with friends...
zzz
called his mother~~chat chat chat
fourth pull me into cyber cafe...
and play...
and wad did it happen~~
my beat me and say me broke my promise~~
walau i was just going to tell her the truth...
she just come using the wodden stick..
i just run out from the house...
and go to the park..
sitting on the swings..
then.saw them came...saying lets go agn...
i ignore them...
then they just using some unexpected feeling on me~~and gone away...
many things happen...this is the problem....and there is no ways to cure it
must accept this path~~
maybe one day ,they will get the revenge from me~~
maybe ,just MAYBE

It wont have an ending~~ c0mments! always saying myself good mood but am i lying?
always saying myself is in good shape but am i really ok?
after listening some songs~~
i felt very weird about myself~~
becoming another person
what now...
there is one energy pulling me to be solitude~~
but i just dun wan~~
so...i will get the pain everyday from now~~
my heart is living structure..not a pulling string~~
my heart will be broken~~at anytime
nice~~kenny got liao~~haha
congrats lo...
argue agn~~cannot stop~~(girl)
normal(all my sister)
for some reason felt like different~~
endless ~~
It is endless~~
today saw many couple in the time square~~(reason)
basketball match(reason)
teamates(reason)

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!
i wanted to scream to death~~
WAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!@.@

Suffering in a lonely world c0mments! shall a vampire crushing on someone?
i guess that is a error to my vamp rules...
crushing on girl is a wrong suggestion for vamp
but i just couldnt help it..
zzz
next lonely is not the meaning that u guys always think~~
it means everytime at my home,feels like lacking u guys~~
that is the lonely i am meaning...
i live on this world only got one purpose....
is to find out teamwork,friends,family(school) and lovers
only left teamwork and lovers
and it will be the hardest
cant believe i have this kind of purpose~~
but i ask my heart many times already
and this is the answer i get...
the support i got is music and friends~~~
music is the only thing i cannot lack
if lack it~~my heart will never be healed~~
must fight for anything i seek~~
teamwork this year definately cannot be found
thanks for my class JR2F
i have to wait till another year~~
2010=none teamwork year~~
my solution..XD

am i the only vampire in this vioience world?? c0mments! these days~~keep bleeding~~
almost want faint
body keep getting weak and weaker...
and i am walking like no backbone liao~~
T.T
i had high fever not because of no drink water(well usually i dont drink water)
i got stung by the aedes
haha~~
tell you guys~~
all my fault
i got to kill that mosquito~~
and saw many blood on my hand~~
same~~
couldnt resits~~
got lick it~~
taste like it stung a girls blood~~
such sweet taste~~
like it~~
and the good thing is my parent didnt know~~i had high fever~~
cuz when they want to touch my fore head~~
i faster run back my room~~
hehe~~
but hx muimui~~i do all this only got one special reason~~
dont worry me too much~~
and dont angry me ya...
cuz i wan to leave this world faster
u all maybe thought i am joking~~
some of u guys even thought i just say say~~
yes...i am saying....
saying the truth~~
dont believe ,then fine lu...
mui~~gor want to tell you~~
i really care about you~~
but always no time to ask more about you~~
cuz u always want to do revision~~
so i decided to write on this blog~~
i am very shocked to see hx mui is the first girl i wanted to find in this world~~
but my time has already wasted too much~~
and shocked to see human always doing someting
not like my species~~
and huien jie~~
thanks for your everything at junior 1h
i felt lucky that year
and sometimes i will just cry~~
cry because of you~~
shocked huh...~~
i cry for family 1time
i cry because hurted someone 2times
i cry because thought i am useless 1time
i cry for my school friend 1times
i cry for my jie(huien) and mui(hx) 5times liao~~~
a boy cry so many time~~
very very noob right~~
but i cry cause i want to heal my heart with tears~~
so thanks to you all~~
hoping you understand what i said~~

Giving up~~basketball c0mments! things went good...at the training
until he came to our team~~
马浚伟:14,taller than me(just a little bit)
he is not even good~~
but one day he become stronger~~
he came and LC me~~and only me~~
what's the problem with him~~
did i even say something to him~~
this was ok~~
even worst is everyone support him~~(including my coach)'
what's wrong with them~~~
ask them why~~
answer no come to training for two days~~
well~~this i can confirm is my fault!!
another one is when coach is choosing who to the friendship competition~~
i always got chosen but~~~But~~~BUT!!!
i am not even the backup
that time i was like going to cry~~
why!!!
i train so hard~~
where is my place~~
where!at that idoit马浚伟there lo!!!
at the last match we fought together~~~
he is not even running~~
and i am the only one who almost want to faint~~+sicking+not enough energy
running like idoit at the full court~~
and i n=know is worth it~~
but the problem is our opponent is 18years old
haiz...
got chase dao~~~
but also fail to block the ball~~
and do you know what happen to my freaking coach?
he scold me like hell~~
instead of that 马浚伟and my teamates
scold dao dripping tears liao~~
not the first time but third
i dont like people scold me~~
when i am not the only one who have this wrong~~
and i get scolded
马浚伟get praised~~saying that he is most valued player~~
what am i~~~
what do i get~~
told my coach to teach me solo 5
he said i am way too short...
what's the maning of this
my captain shorter than me so much~~!
he can still teach him~~
and he is so slow~~
i run faster than all of them,except one guy lar...
why!!!
another day is at our training basketball court~~
training 5on5
coach not here~~
i am haivng high fever,like volcano on my head
headache+stomach ache
they all know,but what are their respond?
faster la~~junwei play liao la!!!!
fuck u la junwei~~!!!
when i pass wrong ball
Mahai!!!
sohai!!!
and more dont want say liao~~马浚伟said all
马浚伟do wrong something...~~
haiz...gambateh la...
u can do it d...
next time be more carefull


now do you see why i want to quit~~
if u are teamates who are watching this blog~~
and i am telling you now~~
i play basketball
cuz i want to make friends~~
i play it
cuz i like teamwork
i play it
cuz i like to become stronger
and i am going to find another team~~
i want them to keep me~~
and one day when we met at competition
i will surely show you~erhm...马浚伟and all of my dissapointed teamates~~
what will your team be without me~!!
and the most reason~~
i will prove to you all!!!
i am stronger than you all!!!!
just wait and see马浚伟
u thought i playing so 认真at training~~
and thought that i am so weak~~
well i have to say u are wrong~!!!
coach,teamates....
u are not even teamwork just JR2F
all you guys do the best is saying me such a noob~~
i忍liao u guys so much!!!
but will you guys even understand~~
will you?WILL YOU!!!!?